By Barbara Rainey
First Posted on EverThineHome.com
One of my great faults, which shows up regularly in our marriage, is my first-born perfectionism turned on my husband as ‘helping’. Sometimes it happens when he’s telling a story and doesn’t get the details right as I remember them and I correct him. (btw, I do work hard not to correct publicly.)
Other times I’ve corrected mistakes in pronunciation or how he eats. The mother in me fixes his hair, straightens his jacket or shirt, or points out that his socks are all wrong with those shoes. Things I promised myself I would never do in my marriage.
Graciously my husband absorbs most of my helping but too many times my corrections are not spoken with love but sound to him like criticism or condemnation. When he tells me I usually feel justified first, “I’m just trying to help you,” I think.
But then I remember that communication isn’t what is said but it’s what is heard and he heard a tone in my voice, intended or not, that felt unkind and unloving.
I admit I don’t like being wrong. Apologizing still isn’t easy. Over and over I must choose to recognize my sin, confess it and ask for forgiveness. Then the choice is his to grant it or to hold on to hurt.
And so we repeat a practice in our marriage as worn and as reliable as the ancient stone steps leading up to the temple ruins in Jerusalem. We practice the same forgiveness Jesus taught His disciples and followers as they walked in and out of the temple and all over the land of Israel.
What makes Christian forgiveness completely different is the transforming heart change that only Christ can make. Forgiveness isn’t ignoring an offense, pretending it didn’t happen or saying ‘it’s ok.’
It’s taking the brokenness in my life to the Savior for His healing life changing touch. It’s asking Him to make my heart like His.
How hard this is to forgive …
Recently I sat across the table from a couple in their early 40s, listening as they told their story of infidelity. It was a crushing experience for both spouses as he felt deep regret and she deep betrayal. But living in this mix of emotions I heard a determined choice to forgive and be reconciled.
Jesus knew betrayal. And He died to cleanse all of us betrayers.
I reached across the table and put my hands on theirs, looked them both intently in their eyes and said, “I am so very proud of you for choosing to believe nothing is impossible with God. You are courageously believing God can restore your marriage from these ashes. I am very proud of you.”
All three of us got teary-eyed. They said, “most everyone is telling us to quit, but we want to believe God for restoration.” They are experiencing a deep understanding that true forgiveness is not possible without the power of the cross. Every marriage faces impossible to overcome crises over the years. Sometimes multiple times.
Real faith was on display that day with this broken-hearted couple.
Their choices were mirroring exactly what Jesus did on the cross after He was betrayed, not just by Judas but by all His disciples, and every one of us.
Jesus chose God’s plan, refusing to quit because it was hard, too hard.
He chose to keep His promises, not break them.
He chose to endure the pain, knowing joy was ahead.
He chose to love me as He suffered, because our reconciliation was near!
He chose to forgive, even though it was completely undeserved.
Easter shows us that if God can resurrect a dead Jesus then He can resurrect dead marriages.
If God can work all things together for good at the cross He can work together seemingly impossible situations in our marriages for good.
This is Jesus forgiveness … irrational and counter-intuitive.
His forgiveness in us, in our marriages, drives a stake, or a cross, in the ground and says, “we will not give up on our marriage promises. We choose God’s plan and His miraculous wondrous ability to redeem.
Jesus modeled impossible to forgive forgiveness for us when He said, “Father forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Might that be our prayer too in our marriages?
May you make this choice for your marriage today, and every day till death do you part for God’s glory and honor and resurrection praise! May you forgive 70 times 7 as Jesus explained to the disciples.
Because He is risen “nothing is too hard for God,” (Jere. 32:17).
My Heart, Ever His: Prayers for Women (BRAND NEW from Barbara Rainey)
As we search for meaning in our world of shallow online relationships and glamorized selfies, many are returning to traditional and liturgical churches. The repeated words, benedictions, and historic hymns connect us to saints who have gone before, giving us a sense of belonging, richness, and transcendence. Written prayers, once cast off as archaic, are now welcomed as guides to tune our hearts to the heart of God.
In My Heart, Ever His Barbara Rainey shares 40 prayers for women. Readers can read and meditate on one prayer throughout the week or read a prayer a day for 40 days as a way to express the longing of our hearts to our Father who loves us even as he sees who we truly are. Like the psalms of David, these prayers are honest, sometimes raw. Barbara uses these transparent expressions of common female experiences to encourage us to surrender to Christ and help us see God as he is, not as we assume him to be. My Heart, Ever His provides a stepping-stone to help you become more transparent with God and discover his welcoming embrace.
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